WIP’s and anxiety

I’m dividing this post, first the WIP’s, then the other stuff.

Pomatomus knit for a boy… It’s coming along nicely, as I’m working on it while listening to stuff, and as I subscribe to a gazillion podcasts…

The striped sock hasn’t gotten that much attention… I haven’t done very much reading, instead I’ve been watching the first season of L word.

While watching L word I do a different kind of project, some mindless crochet

and it’s flying along. Mesh crochet takes no time and no focus. Love it.

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Other than that I worry. Mostly about money, and the fact that I don’t have much, it’s one of the things that gnaws on my inside and keeps me awake. I worry about it and my BF dosen’t, he just dosen’t think about it. Therefore I cannot talk to him about it… he’s just not interested.

Combine that with me tapering of my meds, stuff I’ve been taking for years. I don’t feel depressed any more, I’m angry and afraid.

Lastly I’m moving. This is going to free up a considerable amount of money when we’re out of this place, but at the same time the rythm of my days will change, my freedom is going to be limited again, and I’ll be living with four people, not one. It’s hard.

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It’s raining, I worry too much and the newspaper told me this morning about a world I don’t like. Things are going badely.
The rain pours down from the grey sky and all I can do is to sit back, shut the drapes, and pick of my knitting, hoping it will calm me down again…